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Think of words ending in "GRY". "Angry" and "hungry" are two of them.

There are only three words in the English language. What is the third word?

The word is something that everyone uses every day. If you have listened carefully, I have already told you what it is.

I was there. I witnessed the event. It was just as bad as Jacky described. I have never seen a linux install that was so bad.

I don't claim to be a linux guru but i have installed a variety of distros in my time.

SUSE 9.2 was the worst one yet.

Grand Theft Auto San Andreas. It huge.

Even as I try to explain this you will still never understand how truely big this game is. If you ever played any of the GTA series prior to you would understand that the cities are already massive. I'll use this inference as an example:

GTA: 3 the entire game is equal to that of one city in GTA: VICE CITY. The entire game is of VICE CITY is equal about 1/4 of the smallest city in SAN ANDREAS. And even that is a massive understatement.

The are so many features I won't even bother listing them. I'll just say this:

What other game allows you to date women and then turn around and pimp them out?

I thought of many ways of putting it but I think this quote says it all:

There is nothing like returning to a place that remains unchanged to find the ways in which you yourself have altered.

Nelson Mandela, 'A Long Walk to Freedom'
S. African black civil rights leader (1918 - )


Back from his brief hiatus, Rubeus is returning to Tribe and the picture pile........Bitches.

I was doing fine..
I said alright team we are going out there and win one for the gipper.
Then sweet sweet Mazar hit me..
and it was all over.

I am impressed.

(if shows up as a double post, its becuase tribe wouldn't let me edit my original)

I was doing fine..
I said alright team we are going out there and win one for the gipper.
Then sweet sweet Mazar hit me..
and it was all over.

Had a interesting conversation with a friend I made an interesting revelation:

A:
Just looking forward to the weekend. Been a busy week.

K:
I think that a lot of Western people live life by weeks.

A:
Thats how our society is based. M-F.

K:
I hear a lot of people say, "I had a horrible/fantastic week" "I have two more weeks left!" etc...

K:
And if you talk with them on Monday mornings, they will usually ask, "How was your weekend?" Although my school schedule is in weeks, I don't think I have a strong sense of dividing life by weeks as much the Westerners do.

K:
Partly because I have always had school on Saturdays, and work on Sundays..

A:
What do you do?

K:
But I refresh my brain daily, and try to have a fresh start by seasons.

A:
Good point.


Exactly over the last two months i have been focusing on many projects. I have achieved all the goals I have set forward to do. Yet I went through a great deal of stress to acomplish those goals. I reflected and wonder if I had to repeat the same scenerio again if I could do it without the stress.

Better planning? No.
Better people? No.
More time? Well... Who couldn't use more time in their day for anything?

I came to the conclusion that I did not account for additional time to relax and refresh my mind enough. I usually ended looking forward to the weekend and chilling then. Thats not enough.

After the above conversation I decided to dedicated at least 1 hour daily to refresh my mind and renew my focus. This should help to deal with the future trials and tribulations.

When I focus and set out to complete a goal, Everything get prioritized. If who or whatever does benefit me in achieving my goal then it gets dropped. Cold? Yes, undeniably so. I could complete my goals or waste time on unimportant issues and dealing with problems.

I began to follow this approach over the last year. It worked. But it could work much better. Over the last couple of months I refined it, became even more colder, more focused and dedicated.

The biggest step made was to drop others people drama. That made me much more focused and less stressed. I believe some people are emotional charity cases. You know the type, "My life is shit, i'm so confused". Yet these people don't want to get off their ass and fix their own lives. They expect that by bitching to people about their problems that people will help them. People do help them, but the cycle still continues. They don't take control of their lives. Don't get me wrong, its always good to help. Just don't make a mother fucking career out of helping the same person over and over again. Hell, sometimes the same people just want drama in their lives to feel important or get some form of attention. Be it negative or positve attention, any form is good enough for them. Always starting shit and picking fights for no good reason. I've decided to reduce my contact with these people and focus my energies on other things.

I have accomplished so much in the last few months.

Previous to this new found dedication, I viewed things in a open mindedly. Open to new ideas and approached things looking at all the angles. I used this "view" in attempt to approach things with the least amount of stress and least amount of negativity towards others. I called it "the don't bring no stress, won't be no stress" approach. It didn't work. Resulted in lack of focus and direction. Resulted in being more re-active than pro-active. That led to Ietting life lead me instead of me leading life. That had to change. Being opened to new things made me realise that you cannot please everyvody, and if don't take care of number one no one will. You can't get ahead without stress in some form.

Now that the first quarter of the year is complete. All short-term goals are complete and long term goals are on track. I look forward to planning for the summer....

Update:

Excuse me sir, do you know what time it is?

4-20-2004 4:20

Okay, here's what I don't get. Why are there thousands of women who get paid to take their gear off but would give anything to do something else, meanwhile, singers with more than enough bank wanna flash their goods for free? Hold on for a second, I just got a phone call. It's the collective male voice of of the entire planet... They said, "shuddup Rev, you're messing it up for everybody." True. What was I thinking? You wanna show off that nipple piercing (that looked damn sexy and kill bill dangerous, on some ninja type ish), who am I to stop you?

I think this was the best New Years ever.

I'll sum it up real quick.

Saved a girl from getting beat up and raped. (Final good deed for 2003)

Went downtown to, and hung out with 35,000 people all trying to call someone at once at the quarter to twelve for and hour... still fine had fun jumping up and down, screaming, kissing random chicks and walk down the street with the mob.

Call Ops to wish him the best. Talked to Mon as well and did the same. Mentioned I have to visit them this Feb.

Came back to my friends place. They were all tired, I had insomina and full of energy!. Called Jacky to wish him the best for 2004 and told me to get my black ass over to his place. So i did.

Saw warpus, mikey, Embrais , Myc, Doug Collin and some other. Became elevated and had the best conversation about physics and my disbelief of string theory. (String theory doesn't take into the consideration of the Law of Conservation of Matter) Then realized I could be wrong due to my lack of understanding Tachyons. I'll be more prepared next time.

Went home, slept, woke up and went to my good friends house. She was hot. We wanted each other for the longest time, but now she has an asshole for a boyfriend. I planned to remedy that real soon.

Went home talked to rebeka, we made plans for her bikini modeling this summer. I crashed.

Woke up, watch TV, thought to myself. Damn this is good year. Turned on this box, cursed windows cause it sucks. Wrote this blog.

My saying/phrase guideline for the year has yet to be determined (stars aren't aligned yet). I'll think of that later. For now I'm off to get drunk.

Been busy with the holiday rounds. No real time to blog.
Expect my New Year Phrase/Saying/Tone of the year to come soon.
Last years was "If you didn't see it coming, its your own damn fault (the end)"

Don't know how this years is gonna be, must be in that elevated state of mind.

A lot things happened this year. Didn't see them coming. Guess it was my own damn fault.