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it's ridiculous how much my tailbone hurts!!

I hurt it playing hockey, cuz my back, left knee and right ankle weren't hard enough to deal with already. I was turning to skate backwards while playing defence and my right skate (starting to notice a trend?) went into a big rut and I landed squarely on my ass.

Add to that, somehow everyone seems to have it out for my ailing right ankle. A player got his hockey stick caught in my skate and wrenched my ankle, then I took a slapshot off the same sore spot, then I was tripped, etc...

I need some good ol' fashion TLC. Too bad one of them died a few years ago.

what's up with that?

How many people do you know that need 4 x-rays in 1 day? Oh yes... 4 in 1 day!!

I had an x-ray on my...

Chest - I have been coughing for over 2.5 months
Pelvis - I hurt something playing baseball last summer
Knee - There's fluid in my knee for some unknown reason
Ankle - Going on 2 months and still have pain

The most annoying part of the x-ray is the ridiculous positions they expect you to hold while they take their sweet time walking over to take the image. There isn't a human that can remain still for that long, especially when it requires them to move you into that position because your body doesn't twist that way.

Seriously, I'm really flexible, but I'm no contortionist. Well... except when I'm in bed with the ladies!! :p

Don't ever believe words like "Trust me" or, "I swear" or "It'll never happen" or... any form of bullshit meant to make you change your mind about providing for others whom you don't fully trust.

There's a reason why people don't trust others. This world is full of low life scum who hop from person to person, much like a crack whore, just in hopes of getting their next favour done. Some even dip to the level of a crack whore, just to ensure victory.

I let my guard down in just such an incident. Normally, I only trust a select few people, even then, I only trust them with a select few things. This time, a crack whore I didn't trust with anything, I entrusted too much too and got burned for it.

There are two things I take away from this:
1. Don't trust anyone you know you can't trust
2. Filter out the useless crack whores

At least I have learned from my mistake, but at what price... at what price indeed?

I went downtown to hang with Grimm for his birthday.

The majority of the night was spent trying to avoid eye contact and running away from "the humper"... beyond that, it was stupid picture time!!

From the vault:

1. Two men and a woman holding hands:


2. Some handsome bloke:

This rollercoaster we call life, has dealt me a cruel hand at many a times. To cope with this, I have developed humour and a very deep well of emotions.

This deep well is regularly added to with personal issues, lack of achieving goals, etc... There are very few times when I'm tempted to expose the frustration in the well. Tonight was one of them.

At the end of our hockey game, just before the whistle blew, I went into the corner with someone I have a history with, and gave him a nudge against the boards. He took exception to this and (with his glove on) punched me right in the face when I wasn't expecting it. I fell to the ice, because I was completely caught off guard and off balance. He proceeded to punch me a second time, this time while I am down on the ice.

There were some cobwebs, I admit. It took a few seconds for me to actually realize what had happened. When I got off the ice, everyone had jumped to separate us to make sure we didn't fight. Then, when I show interest in retaliating, he uses the line, "oh now that the referee is between us?". To prove my interest, I moved away from the crowd to an open area and called him over. We locked arms, I even gave him a nice taste of the palm of my glove, but then I let him go.

I could feel inside of me, all the rage from that well building up and it was unfair to him that he was going to be the target. I was ready to pumbel him into dust. Instead, I just allowed cooler heads to prevail (as they say).

Afterwards in the dressing room, my hands were shaking (more so than usual) because it was on the tip of my fingers, just to let it all out for the first time... but not then, not in that forum. Then the humour element kicked in and said, "I'll just wait till I have kids to hit someone like that" :)

My best friend of 25 years is also on the team and he said he had never seen me that enraged before.

I need to find the right time and forum to let this rage out or it's going to envelop me one day.

When you're using lines like these in bed...

cat /var/log/maillog /var/log/local1.log | grep "disconnect from" | cut -f3 -d [ | cut -f1 -d] | sort | uniq -c | sort

cat /var/log/maillog /var/log/local1.log | grep NOQUEUE | awk '{print $12}' | sort | uniq -c | sort

... you're bound to not get any!!

My question:
How to get a Woman in any amount of days ?

I think I'm gonna work at home from now on.
I get so much more done without having everyone pecking at my brain for their little piece.

...and yes, I am doing work at home on a Saturday... please don't remind me!!!


I AM THE MESSENJAH


what's up with that?