You meet a woman, who at first, means no more to you than any stranger. Someone who you aren't making the attempt to ignore, but have no interest in initially so you show no signs of care for them even being there.
Gradually you begin to notice the person. Sure there is beauty, and it had always been there from the beginning, but it really meant nothing because one sees multiple beautiful people every day, so really... what's one more? But gradually you begin to notice the person by way of their manerisms and characteristics.
It's those manerisms and characteristics that spawn the want to know more about the person. If the person is nothing more than what you see during those brief times together, they are demoted back to 'just another beautiful person'. However, if that person is far more than that, this is when a real attraction occurs... thus in my case.
This summer, I played baseball and my personal goal at the time was nothing related to meeting anyone, dispite the baseball league being co-ed. I wanted to get back to a sport I hadn't played in years and just wanted to focus and play the game hard and get better every day.
I met someone on my team who had obvious physical beauty, but at first contact, we clashed and actually had an argument (that we both fondly remember). So the clashing only made our distance even further and my interest level in her even less. Slowly over time, I started to take notice to her manerisms and characteristics. Being as hard headed as I can be at times, I stuck to my guns and just continued on the path of "meh, who cares about her".
That all changed when I said four magical and beautiful words... and I will never regret saying these words because of what grew from them. They were the first outward attempt by me to make any contact with her. It happened when I was at first base and she was at second. I studied the game a lot when I was younger, and continued the same analysis while in this co-ed league. I could tell, by body language, that the right-handed batter was going to 'hit it the other way' and directly at her on the ground. I then looked in her direction, got her attention and said those four magical words, "It's coming to you", then turned my head back to home plate. The ball was hit directly to her on the ground as I had speculated. She threw the ball to me and we got the batter out and ended the inning.
It was from that point on that she made every effort known to man to get my attention... and this time, I was listening. I had even asked her out at one point, but she being as dense as a guy didn't realize, so that never happened. But it was a positive for me no matter what, because she was on MY TURF... a baseball field and I had all the confidence in the world to say what I thought and felt. Being shy doesn't exist when I'm playing ball. Had I met her on the street, I would have never said a word to her. I assure you of that cuz I'm too damn shy.
.... jumping ahead ....
Now it hasn't all been fun and games. There has been quite the emotional roller coaster going on here. Imagine feeling kept at a conscious distance from the woman's emotions. It was hard to ever truely express a feeling or sign of affection because it, from my perspective, seemed unwanted.
Apparently it wasn't the case, but it took one of many breakups for this to finally come out into the open. It was great though, because we knew why the other had been the way they were, so going back was immediately different and felt far more special. Real feelings developed on both sides.
The problem is that there has always been this lingering cancer. This cancer is the type that can be completely cured, but you just have to be willing to admit to yourself that you have it and need to seek help from the right people to have it dealt with properly.
The cancer is very persuasive, because.. in its nature, it is cancer, so it automatically strikes fear into its victim. Especially if this is a reoccurance of the same cancer that wasn't correctly treated the first time around.
However, as I mentioned above. This cancer can be completely cured, as long as the person infected wants to be cured, it is caught in time and the right people are helping to eradicate it. Simply having it go into remission won't stop it, because it is still there. This strain can be completely removed and allow the person to get back to functioning normally.
After developing real feelings for this person over our time spent, it would be a crushing blow to lose them to this highly contagious, yet easily treatable form of cancer. I've already lost someone in my life to an uncureable form.
All this person has to do is want to be cured.
Gradually you begin to notice the person. Sure there is beauty, and it had always been there from the beginning, but it really meant nothing because one sees multiple beautiful people every day, so really... what's one more? But gradually you begin to notice the person by way of their manerisms and characteristics.
It's those manerisms and characteristics that spawn the want to know more about the person. If the person is nothing more than what you see during those brief times together, they are demoted back to 'just another beautiful person'. However, if that person is far more than that, this is when a real attraction occurs... thus in my case.
This summer, I played baseball and my personal goal at the time was nothing related to meeting anyone, dispite the baseball league being co-ed. I wanted to get back to a sport I hadn't played in years and just wanted to focus and play the game hard and get better every day.
I met someone on my team who had obvious physical beauty, but at first contact, we clashed and actually had an argument (that we both fondly remember). So the clashing only made our distance even further and my interest level in her even less. Slowly over time, I started to take notice to her manerisms and characteristics. Being as hard headed as I can be at times, I stuck to my guns and just continued on the path of "meh, who cares about her".
That all changed when I said four magical and beautiful words... and I will never regret saying these words because of what grew from them. They were the first outward attempt by me to make any contact with her. It happened when I was at first base and she was at second. I studied the game a lot when I was younger, and continued the same analysis while in this co-ed league. I could tell, by body language, that the right-handed batter was going to 'hit it the other way' and directly at her on the ground. I then looked in her direction, got her attention and said those four magical words, "It's coming to you", then turned my head back to home plate. The ball was hit directly to her on the ground as I had speculated. She threw the ball to me and we got the batter out and ended the inning.
It was from that point on that she made every effort known to man to get my attention... and this time, I was listening. I had even asked her out at one point, but she being as dense as a guy didn't realize, so that never happened. But it was a positive for me no matter what, because she was on MY TURF... a baseball field and I had all the confidence in the world to say what I thought and felt. Being shy doesn't exist when I'm playing ball. Had I met her on the street, I would have never said a word to her. I assure you of that cuz I'm too damn shy.
.... jumping ahead ....
Now it hasn't all been fun and games. There has been quite the emotional roller coaster going on here. Imagine feeling kept at a conscious distance from the woman's emotions. It was hard to ever truely express a feeling or sign of affection because it, from my perspective, seemed unwanted.
Apparently it wasn't the case, but it took one of many breakups for this to finally come out into the open. It was great though, because we knew why the other had been the way they were, so going back was immediately different and felt far more special. Real feelings developed on both sides.
The problem is that there has always been this lingering cancer. This cancer is the type that can be completely cured, but you just have to be willing to admit to yourself that you have it and need to seek help from the right people to have it dealt with properly.
The cancer is very persuasive, because.. in its nature, it is cancer, so it automatically strikes fear into its victim. Especially if this is a reoccurance of the same cancer that wasn't correctly treated the first time around.
However, as I mentioned above. This cancer can be completely cured, as long as the person infected wants to be cured, it is caught in time and the right people are helping to eradicate it. Simply having it go into remission won't stop it, because it is still there. This strain can be completely removed and allow the person to get back to functioning normally.
After developing real feelings for this person over our time spent, it would be a crushing blow to lose them to this highly contagious, yet easily treatable form of cancer. I've already lost someone in my life to an uncureable form.
All this person has to do is want to be cured.