what's up with that?
I have taken my work Vacation time from Dec 17th - Jan 2nd.
In that time, I am going to finally get myself back to snowboarding. The last time I went was the year before I hurt my knee. Since then I have had too many problems with the same knee and my shoulder and wrist to be able to even consider getting back to it.
Currently, I feel as close to 'fine' as I can possibly get... so now I need someone who knows wtf to buy and for a good price. I plan to practice in my backyard and get back the balance, stopping and ability to switch direction. I am equal with both legs at all sports, so after I can do that, I'm ready for the real hills again.
Try making fun of me for living in the country now, douchebags!!
Anyone looking to help a sucka?
(no commission)
In that time, I am going to finally get myself back to snowboarding. The last time I went was the year before I hurt my knee. Since then I have had too many problems with the same knee and my shoulder and wrist to be able to even consider getting back to it.
Currently, I feel as close to 'fine' as I can possibly get... so now I need someone who knows wtf to buy and for a good price. I plan to practice in my backyard and get back the balance, stopping and ability to switch direction. I am equal with both legs at all sports, so after I can do that, I'm ready for the real hills again.
Try making fun of me for living in the country now, douchebags!!
Anyone looking to help a sucka?
(no commission)
it's hard to fathom losing someone to this
mood: Sad
music playing: Foreigner - Waiting For A Girl Like You
You meet a woman, who at first, means no more to you than any stranger. Someone who you aren't making the attempt to ignore, but have no interest in initially so you show no signs of care for them even being there.
Gradually you begin to notice the person. Sure there is beauty, and it had always been there from the beginning, but it really meant nothing because one sees multiple beautiful people every day, so really... what's one more? But gradually you begin to notice the person by way of their manerisms and characteristics.
It's those manerisms and characteristics that spawn the want to know more about the person. If the person is nothing more than what you see during those brief times together, they are demoted back to 'just another beautiful person'. However, if that person is far more than that, this is when a real attraction occurs... thus in my case.
This summer, I played baseball and my personal goal at the time was nothing related to meeting anyone, dispite the baseball league being co-ed. I wanted to get back to a sport I hadn't played in years and just wanted to focus and play the game hard and get better every day.
I met someone on my team who had obvious physical beauty, but at first contact, we clashed and actually had an argument (that we both fondly remember). So the clashing only made our distance even further and my interest level in her even less. Slowly over time, I started to take notice to her manerisms and characteristics. Being as hard headed as I can be at times, I stuck to my guns and just continued on the path of "meh, who cares about her".
That all changed when I said four magical and beautiful words... and I will never regret saying these words because of what grew from them. They were the first outward attempt by me to make any contact with her. It happened when I was at first base and she was at second. I studied the game a lot when I was younger, and continued the same analysis while in this co-ed league. I could tell, by body language, that the right-handed batter was going to 'hit it the other way' and directly at her on the ground. I then looked in her direction, got her attention and said those four magical words, "It's coming to you", then turned my head back to home plate. The ball was hit directly to her on the ground as I had speculated. She threw the ball to me and we got the batter out and ended the inning.
It was from that point on that she made every effort known to man to get my attention... and this time, I was listening. I had even asked her out at one point, but she being as dense as a guy didn't realize, so that never happened. But it was a positive for me no matter what, because she was on MY TURF... a baseball field and I had all the confidence in the world to say what I thought and felt. Being shy doesn't exist when I'm playing ball. Had I met her on the street, I would have never said a word to her. I assure you of that cuz I'm too damn shy.
.... jumping ahead ....
Now it hasn't all been fun and games. There has been quite the emotional roller coaster going on here. Imagine feeling kept at a conscious distance from the woman's emotions. It was hard to ever truely express a feeling or sign of affection because it, from my perspective, seemed unwanted.
Apparently it wasn't the case, but it took one of many breakups for this to finally come out into the open. It was great though, because we knew why the other had been the way they were, so going back was immediately different and felt far more special. Real feelings developed on both sides.
The problem is that there has always been this lingering cancer. This cancer is the type that can be completely cured, but you just have to be willing to admit to yourself that you have it and need to seek help from the right people to have it dealt with properly.
The cancer is very persuasive, because.. in its nature, it is cancer, so it automatically strikes fear into its victim. Especially if this is a reoccurance of the same cancer that wasn't correctly treated the first time around.
However, as I mentioned above. This cancer can be completely cured, as long as the person infected wants to be cured, it is caught in time and the right people are helping to eradicate it. Simply having it go into remission won't stop it, because it is still there. This strain can be completely removed and allow the person to get back to functioning normally.
After developing real feelings for this person over our time spent, it would be a crushing blow to lose them to this highly contagious, yet easily treatable form of cancer. I've already lost someone in my life to an uncureable form.
All this person has to do is want to be cured.
Gradually you begin to notice the person. Sure there is beauty, and it had always been there from the beginning, but it really meant nothing because one sees multiple beautiful people every day, so really... what's one more? But gradually you begin to notice the person by way of their manerisms and characteristics.
It's those manerisms and characteristics that spawn the want to know more about the person. If the person is nothing more than what you see during those brief times together, they are demoted back to 'just another beautiful person'. However, if that person is far more than that, this is when a real attraction occurs... thus in my case.
This summer, I played baseball and my personal goal at the time was nothing related to meeting anyone, dispite the baseball league being co-ed. I wanted to get back to a sport I hadn't played in years and just wanted to focus and play the game hard and get better every day.
I met someone on my team who had obvious physical beauty, but at first contact, we clashed and actually had an argument (that we both fondly remember). So the clashing only made our distance even further and my interest level in her even less. Slowly over time, I started to take notice to her manerisms and characteristics. Being as hard headed as I can be at times, I stuck to my guns and just continued on the path of "meh, who cares about her".
That all changed when I said four magical and beautiful words... and I will never regret saying these words because of what grew from them. They were the first outward attempt by me to make any contact with her. It happened when I was at first base and she was at second. I studied the game a lot when I was younger, and continued the same analysis while in this co-ed league. I could tell, by body language, that the right-handed batter was going to 'hit it the other way' and directly at her on the ground. I then looked in her direction, got her attention and said those four magical words, "It's coming to you", then turned my head back to home plate. The ball was hit directly to her on the ground as I had speculated. She threw the ball to me and we got the batter out and ended the inning.
It was from that point on that she made every effort known to man to get my attention... and this time, I was listening. I had even asked her out at one point, but she being as dense as a guy didn't realize, so that never happened. But it was a positive for me no matter what, because she was on MY TURF... a baseball field and I had all the confidence in the world to say what I thought and felt. Being shy doesn't exist when I'm playing ball. Had I met her on the street, I would have never said a word to her. I assure you of that cuz I'm too damn shy.
.... jumping ahead ....
Now it hasn't all been fun and games. There has been quite the emotional roller coaster going on here. Imagine feeling kept at a conscious distance from the woman's emotions. It was hard to ever truely express a feeling or sign of affection because it, from my perspective, seemed unwanted.
Apparently it wasn't the case, but it took one of many breakups for this to finally come out into the open. It was great though, because we knew why the other had been the way they were, so going back was immediately different and felt far more special. Real feelings developed on both sides.
The problem is that there has always been this lingering cancer. This cancer is the type that can be completely cured, but you just have to be willing to admit to yourself that you have it and need to seek help from the right people to have it dealt with properly.
The cancer is very persuasive, because.. in its nature, it is cancer, so it automatically strikes fear into its victim. Especially if this is a reoccurance of the same cancer that wasn't correctly treated the first time around.
However, as I mentioned above. This cancer can be completely cured, as long as the person infected wants to be cured, it is caught in time and the right people are helping to eradicate it. Simply having it go into remission won't stop it, because it is still there. This strain can be completely removed and allow the person to get back to functioning normally.
After developing real feelings for this person over our time spent, it would be a crushing blow to lose them to this highly contagious, yet easily treatable form of cancer. I've already lost someone in my life to an uncureable form.
All this person has to do is want to be cured.
what's up with that?
who ever it was that coined the phrase, "it's great to be single" must have been pretty fucked up from their past love... because let me tell ya, being single 'ain't all that'.
Actually, it really really really really really really really really sucks.
Actually, it really really really really really really really really sucks.
Howard Lederman scores it....
mood: Amused
music playing: Rage Against the Machine - How I Could Just Kill a Man
<Michael Buffer>
Are you ready??
For the thousands in attendance, and the millions watching at home.
Ladies and Gentlemen... Let's get ready to rumble!
Fighting out of the blue corner... Wearing white with grey fur, and weighing in at a strong 70lbs.
Coyote el' WTF am I doing here Dumbasssssssss
Now...
Fighting out of the red corner... Wearing black with grey fur, and weighing in at a muscular 81lbs.
Mac Los 'get the fuck off my property' Badassssssss
</Michael Buffer>
<Howard Lederman>
Well Jim, the Coyote put up a good fight for 1 round, but I have Mac winning in a landslide, 110-107. Mac did get a bloody nose, but the doctors were able to close that quickly. On the other hand, the Coyote lost most of his white fur... and probably some pride. **giggle**
Back to you Jim.
</Howard Lederman>
<Jim Lampley>
Let's go to Larry, who is in the ring with the fighters.
</Jim Lampley>
<Larry Merchant>
Larry: Coyote, you walked into what seemed, "unknown territory" and paid the price for it.
Do you have anything to say?
Coyote: grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Larry: Obviously not much.
Larry: Turning to you Mac. Did you ever question yourself in this fight? You are the older of the two.
Mac: Well first I wanna thank my mom. If it wasn't for that bitch, I wouldn't be here today. Then I wanna thank Jcloth for teaching me the ropes. Showing me right from wrong... you know, keeping me ready to fight.
Larry: Back to you Jim
</Larry Merchant>
<Jim Lampley>
I'm a complete dumbass and shouldn't be passing judgement on anything or anyone, cuz I'm a total dumbass.
</Jim Lampley>
Are you ready??
For the thousands in attendance, and the millions watching at home.
Ladies and Gentlemen... Let's get ready to rumble!
Fighting out of the blue corner... Wearing white with grey fur, and weighing in at a strong 70lbs.
Coyote el' WTF am I doing here Dumbasssssssss
Now...
Fighting out of the red corner... Wearing black with grey fur, and weighing in at a muscular 81lbs.
Mac Los 'get the fuck off my property' Badassssssss
</Michael Buffer>
A bunch of growling and fighting last night.
Followed with lots of white fur left on the lawn.<Howard Lederman>
Well Jim, the Coyote put up a good fight for 1 round, but I have Mac winning in a landslide, 110-107. Mac did get a bloody nose, but the doctors were able to close that quickly. On the other hand, the Coyote lost most of his white fur... and probably some pride. **giggle**
Back to you Jim.
</Howard Lederman>
<Jim Lampley>
Let's go to Larry, who is in the ring with the fighters.
</Jim Lampley>
<Larry Merchant>
Larry: Coyote, you walked into what seemed, "unknown territory" and paid the price for it.
Do you have anything to say?
Coyote: grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Larry: Obviously not much.
Larry: Turning to you Mac. Did you ever question yourself in this fight? You are the older of the two.
Mac: Well first I wanna thank my mom. If it wasn't for that bitch, I wouldn't be here today. Then I wanna thank Jcloth for teaching me the ropes. Showing me right from wrong... you know, keeping me ready to fight.
Larry: Back to you Jim
</Larry Merchant>
<Jim Lampley>
I'm a complete dumbass and shouldn't be passing judgement on anything or anyone, cuz I'm a total dumbass.
</Jim Lampley>
what's up with that?
php4 w/ php5 AND mod_proxy
mood: Accomplished
music playing: Rage Against the Machine - How I Could Just Kill a Man
Someone's gonna be getting some pussy tonight!!
...and with the time it takes to compile PHP, I'm strongly guessing that it ain't gonna be me :P
addendum
I got it to work perfectly!!
Sadly, the logic behind it is pretty damn simple. Install two versions of Apache in separate folders, then two versions of PHP in separate folders.
One has to respond on port 80 and the other on any other available port (not 80). Then you simply proxy all traffic for the intended hostname from the first install of Apache to the second install of Apache on that port.
You also have to add a static host to /etc/hosts to point the proxied URI to the localhost OR whatever IP you want.
The first one has a simple Vhost.
The second has your standard Vhost that you would expect in the httpd.conf
Then start both versions of Apache and you're done.
This guy tries to explain it, but don't listen to his --activate-module bullshit.
Use --with-apxs and load the module in the httpd.conf. That will get you all the ladies.
One major problem however, the entire purpose of this exercise was to get Horde working, but it won't work through the proxy and I'm too lazy to switch them. So the webmail will have to wait another few months.
...and with the time it takes to compile PHP, I'm strongly guessing that it ain't gonna be me :P
addendum
I got it to work perfectly!!
Sadly, the logic behind it is pretty damn simple. Install two versions of Apache in separate folders, then two versions of PHP in separate folders.
One has to respond on port 80 and the other on any other available port (not 80). Then you simply proxy all traffic for the intended hostname from the first install of Apache to the second install of Apache on that port.
You also have to add a static host to /etc/hosts to point the proxied URI to the localhost OR whatever IP you want.
The first one has a simple Vhost.
<VirtualHost *:80>
ServerName domain.com
ServerAlias abc.domain.com
ProxyPass / http://abc.domain.com:81/
</VirtualHost>
The second has your standard Vhost that you would expect in the httpd.conf
<VirtualHost *:81>
ServerName domain.com
ServerAlias abc.domain.com
DocumentRoot /some/location
ScriptAlias /cgi-bin/ "/some/location/cgi-bin/"
</VirtualHost>
Then start both versions of Apache and you're done.
This guy tries to explain it, but don't listen to his --activate-module bullshit.
Use --with-apxs and load the module in the httpd.conf. That will get you all the ladies.
One major problem however, the entire purpose of this exercise was to get Horde working, but it won't work through the proxy and I'm too lazy to switch them. So the webmail will have to wait another few months.
Nov 6 00:22:21 postfix/smtpd[7730]: connect from unknown[209.158.161.50]
Nov 6 00:22:21 postfix/smtpd[7730]: NOQUEUE: reject: RCPT from unknown[209.158.161.50]: 554 Service unavailable; Client host [209.158.161.50] blocked using list.dsbl.org; http://dsbl.org/listing?209.158.161.50; from= to= proto=SMTP helo=
Seriously, who's the dumbass who doesn't know they have to type 'data' after the rcpt line.
Nov 6 00:22:22 postfix/smtpd[7730]: warning: unknown[209.158.161.50] sent non-SMTP command: From: "Joe"
Nov 6 00:22:23 postfix/smtpd[7730]: disconnect from unknown[209.158.161.50]
Nov 6 00:22:21 postfix/smtpd[7730]: NOQUEUE: reject: RCPT from unknown[209.158.161.50]: 554 Service unavailable; Client host [209.158.161.50] blocked using list.dsbl.org; http://dsbl.org/listing?209.158.161.50; from=
Seriously, who's the dumbass who doesn't know they have to type 'data' after the rcpt line.
Nov 6 00:22:22 postfix/smtpd[7730]: warning: unknown[209.158.161.50] sent non-SMTP command: From: "Joe"
Nov 6 00:22:23 postfix/smtpd[7730]: disconnect from unknown[209.158.161.50]